life after it all

I haven’t slept well for the past 2 nights.  In fact, I didn’t even go to work this morning.  I will go to work this afternoon.  But I feel gross.  I’m not tired anymore, but I feel dirty even tho I just showered.  I feel fat and just all around gross.  Most likely its a consequence of two poor nights of sleep, but I hate the way I feel. 

Ugh.

And to make it worse (well, around the fat part), I’m looking at potentially going south in October. 

I’m not usually so self conscious.