I have a little work to do
Perhaps I had stupidly felt that I can conqured my anxiety. I haven't felt anxious - like I use to feel - in months. Especially since Xmas. But over the past 2 weeks I've been little miss anxious again. Namely over my relationship and my job. I don't know where my relationship is going and if I had to guess, I would say down the drain. And the shit hit the fan at work last week and its cause was mostly me. I didn't realize until last night that my bad habits and inexplainable crying have probably been caused by these two events.
So I still have a little bit of work to do in the anxiety dept.
So I still have a little bit of work to do in the anxiety dept.


I didn't make the serious connection between Alesse and severe depression until today, when it hit me that this is probably the reason I woke up way too early and cried because I couldn't go to school today.
So yeah. I am no longer taking it. I can't be sad any more.
ps. My anxiety got worse too. I haven't been this bad in awhile. (Comment this)
I have an appointment at the birth control clinic this aftrenoon to get a refill on my prescription (cause I can't get into see a doctor here if I was dying). So I may be forced to change types depending on whether or not they give pills there or give prescriptions. they might not even give me anything because I don't fall into the "low income" group. But I'm desperate to get a refill!! (Comment this)
I guess bcp's are out of the picture for me. (Comment this)